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Ups and way downs
Jun. 13th, 2004 11:40 pmNo PPV update/thoughts because I didn't watch it. Didn't watch SD! this week either. Nor Impact. Just not into it right now.
Finally had some sunny days, which helped tremendously. The sun alone did wonders, and getting outside for fresh air and some workouts felt really, realy good.
Had a weird thing happen Friday. It was drizzling, and I was out for my walk/run. Usually, I walk a couple of blocks to warm up then I run to cross an intersection and try to keep running as long as I can. When I did that on Friday, my body just said No. Please don't run. And I didn't. I walked instead. And the walk felt really, really, really good. Like how a good run used to make me feel. Then on Saturday, when I started to run, there wasn't the awful lag/drag/whatever I feel when I try to run. I went about a half mile, and I felt good while doing and after I did it.
Today went good too. I'm hoping it stays that way.
Spirit wise, I'm still in a bad funk. I seriously don't know what my problem is. And to make things worse, when I'm feeling stress, I tend to have zero patience with people. Also I like to dwell on stuff that has nothing to do current problems.
So, whenever I'm like this I'm become this murky ball of emotions, alternately needing and despising people. Go Team Fucked Up!
I also have zero desire to write anything right now. Fan or original. That's nothing new; I go through streaks where my obsession wanes. It's just bad timing that one of my major emotional outlets deserted me.
Finally had some sunny days, which helped tremendously. The sun alone did wonders, and getting outside for fresh air and some workouts felt really, realy good.
Had a weird thing happen Friday. It was drizzling, and I was out for my walk/run. Usually, I walk a couple of blocks to warm up then I run to cross an intersection and try to keep running as long as I can. When I did that on Friday, my body just said No. Please don't run. And I didn't. I walked instead. And the walk felt really, really, really good. Like how a good run used to make me feel. Then on Saturday, when I started to run, there wasn't the awful lag/drag/whatever I feel when I try to run. I went about a half mile, and I felt good while doing and after I did it.
Today went good too. I'm hoping it stays that way.
Spirit wise, I'm still in a bad funk. I seriously don't know what my problem is. And to make things worse, when I'm feeling stress, I tend to have zero patience with people. Also I like to dwell on stuff that has nothing to do current problems.
So, whenever I'm like this I'm become this murky ball of emotions, alternately needing and despising people. Go Team Fucked Up!
I also have zero desire to write anything right now. Fan or original. That's nothing new; I go through streaks where my obsession wanes. It's just bad timing that one of my major emotional outlets deserted me.
